I enjoy

Bright Eyes.
I don't think I like my life to be stable. Shit with my actions, stability isn't even in my vocabulary.

Let's play more wow please.

It is done

and I am single again.

I don't know how I managed to do it, but I split.

Hardest fucking thing ever. Well now I look forward and get my shit done.

LAYTERON.

It's really pretty lame

I hate how big of a fucking deal everyone is making about me wanting to just chill by myself on Christmas. It's really not THAT fucking depressing. What does make it depressing, however, is the fact that everyone keeps telling me to go here, to go there, to spend time with this person or that person. Did it ever cross anyone's mind that maybe I WANTED to spend Christmas alone? I honestly don't understand what's so wrong with it.

Or maybe I'm just a jaded, cynical asshole?

WHO THE FUCK CARES?!

Nothing new

Same shit different day kind of thing. I am still with Cynthia and I still go to school and work at Best Buy. I think I failed my math class though, I went into the final with an average C and yeah, weak. Um, I have a lot of things on my mind as Christmas day is nearing.

One big thing is I have no idea why I don't feel so festive now that the holidays are here. I used to absolutely LOVE this time of year, now not so much. I think I have become rather jaded as the years have gone by, TOTALLY WHACK. Honestly, now all I see it as. is an excuse to spend more and more money, especially money I don't have in the first place. I think it would be a lot better if I actually had some money to spend. Seriously, I feel like for every push forward, I get the same fucking push back (thank you Against Me! for that line) and it really sucks. I have half a nerve to just move back to Downey and just work full time. Although, I know in the long run the school will be better off for me.

Can I really wait another year to go back though? I don't think I am fully happy at the moment.